Posted by: jility | December 13, 2012

A Pact with the Devil

The idea of making a pact with the devil is as old as the devil himself. We have all seen the stories on the screen and read about them in books. The scenarios are all pretty much the same:

Person down on their luck or looking for something wonderful in their life.

Devil shows up and offers them love, peace, happiness, success, companionship, wealth or whatever that person thinks they need at the time.

Everything goes great until the devil comes to collect.

That is where the fun stops and the person goes through hell (literally).

Having dogs in our lives is very similar. They give us many years, although not enough years, of pure unconditional love and devotion. No matter what we look like or how much of a jerk we might be, our dogs adore us anyway. It just doesn’t get any better than that! They don’t try to change us or judge us; they just accept us for who we are flaws and all. There could not have been a more perfect creature designed.

I have always thought that dogs were one of the greatest gifts from God. If that were the case, however, it wouldn’t be so painful when we lose them would it? We have years of perfect love, and then, when the time comes to pay the devil, we go through hell and then some.

Yesterday, we lost our beloved feral dog, Miss Millie Angel. It is difficult to type through the tears. She has been part of our lives for twelve years. I thought she would be part of our lives for another 12 years at least. OK, maybe not that long, but I never thought she would be the first to leave our current pack. Not so long ago, I wrote a blog about Millie. She taught me more about dogs than all the other dogs that have graced my life put together. Here is a link to that blog if you want to know more about her.

About a month and a half ago, Millie began to throw up bile in the morning. After three days of that, we took her in to see the vet. Blood work was normal. Then her eating began to deteriorate.

After many trips to vets and a specialist, she was diagnosed with a very aggressive form of stomach cancer. When it became clear that she was in great pain and there was nothing more we could do for her, we let her go. It was the most difficult and heart wrenching decision we have ever had to make.

I buried my tear soaked face in her soft fur. She kissed my face and I said good-bye.

I have cried so much over the past week I don’t think there is any fluid left in my body.

Even though the pain from losing her is overwhelming, it won’t stop me from making another pact with You-know-who when the time comes for another four legged friend.

I would give just about anything to hear Millie bark just once more.

Hug your dogs and cherish every day with them.



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  2. This is good, I subscribe to her blog

    Linda Sent from my iPhone

  3. My heart aches for your loss. What a beautiful tribute to Millie, may her spirit live on in your heart for ever and a day!

  4. so much sadness and losses as of late. I am glad I got to see Millie a few weeks ago enjoying life among her poodles and border collie friends. You and Mel have shares such a grand life together. Hugs to you all!

  5. These dogs come into our lives, give us so much, and it’s so difficult when they leave. May all of your wonderful memories of Millie help to lessen your sadness and heal your hearts. I’m sure that Miss Millie Angel is watching over you with love. May she rest peacefully. Hugs to you and Mel …

  6. Sleep in Heavenly peace, Miss Millie Angel.

  7. Love you Millie.

  8. Helen and Mel: I have wonderful memories of Millie. Coaxing a reluctant Mel to take up the sport of agility. She really did well, esp considering her early life. I always rooted for that team and saluted their accomplishments. I think she would say both sides were fortunate to find the other Hugs to you both Lynn

  9. Helen so sorry for your loss. I love my dog so much it’s hard to explain I feel for your loss and I know what love you give your animals, I wish your family a great holiday and a healthy year ahead. Bob Sweet

  10. breaks my heart. she had the greatest life ever w/you guys, totally loved every day of her life. peace.

  11. I’m so sorry, Helen. I lost my best friend at age 13 to the same thing 11 years ago this February and though I love all my dogs, the void is still there. The kindest act is often the hardest.

  12. Helen; I am so very sorry to hear this. I know the pain you are feeling and it is a very sad one. My heart goes out to you and Mel, plus your canine pack .She will be greatly missed by all who loved her and even more greatly remembered. Hugs.

  13. Oh Helen, it saddens me to read about Millie. She looked so good just three weeks ago. My heart goes out to you and Mel.

  14. Damn Devil. So sorry for your loss.

  15. Sincere sympathy. I wish I had words to make it better.

  16. RIP Dear Sweet Millie xxxxx

  17. My thoughts are with you and Mel…

  18. so sorry for the loss of you dear friend.

  19. Rest in Peace dear Millie. Helen, I know how much this hurts. It can rip ones heart out. Even when we know that they are getting older and time is short. You’ve had a long relationship with this sweet girl, and it is just plain hard. So Sorry. Hugs!

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